What Would I Really Like My Life To Be Like?

I have been asking a lot of questions around what I would like my life to be like.

Questions like…

What would I like to create as my life?

What would be FUN for me?

What was so much FUN for me when I was a girl that I would do it all day?

What makes my heart sing?

What can I add to my life to create a greater living?

I have had several things show up that have led me to look at things I have never considered before. It has been interesting, FUN, and a trip down memory lane!! One of the things that kept showing up when I was looking for things on line is luxury apartments in the heart of large city centers. My body lights up when I look at the rentals!! The luxury of on-site pet service, room service, maid service, concierge service, and so much more…WOW!!! I would like to choose that!!!! The possibility of living 3 months here and 4 months there and 6 months over there inspires me!! Asking these questions has opened me up to receive how much more I can choose. Choosing a life that makes my heart sing is OK and I can have that if I choose it!!

I had interesting points of view that as a single mom my life could not be luxurious and there was a lot of limitation and control around what I could and could not choose.  My Son is 18 turning 19 in 33 sleeps and is living the life that makes his heart sing in Vancouver.  Watching him choose this has been inspiring and has brought out the ugly in me. Several times I have tried to impel my points of view around what he was choosing, not my finest moments.  Choice creates.  Those choices and what they created really had/have me looking at all the points of view I have around making choices that are light even when they don’t make logical sense. I am so grateful for those experiences no matter how ugly and uncomfortable they were! The gift from all of it is I now get to choose in place of reacting as I have acknowledged and cleared all the gunk around this. 

I have also been choosing things that make my heart sing, even when it doesn’t make logical sense, I follow the energy.  I am retaking some modalities I have previously taken and the possibilities and inspiration it has opened me up to are amazing!!! The icing on the cake is a got to meet Cathy Gordichuk (http://colourenergetics-vibesmagazine.blogspot.ca/)!! I am soooooo grateful for all she has gifted me so far!! How did I get so lucky? I get to spend the upcoming weekend with her absorbing more AWEsomeness!!!

I would like to share an awareness I had the other day when I asked “What was so much FUN for me when I was a girl that I would do it all day?” I received several awarenesses around this and the one the made my heart sing the loudest was when I recalled going to the outdoor pool in Vegreville. I would swim to exhaustion and then lie in the sun and swim to exhaustion and then lie in the sun.  I remember holding my breath under water as long as I could all the while pretending I was a mermaid. I loved how my body felt when I swam!! This all changed around adolescents, I wonder what I decided at that point? I am looking forward to choosing things that made my heart sing when I was little NOW!! How much more fun can I add to my life?